Monday, November 12, 2007

the way of the world

so,my opinion, every man for themselves. friends, family, lovers, are all people that love you and have your back. in the end it's all about you and what you can do for yourself. "you" should always come first. it feels good to help others but if you can't help yourself than you won't be that helpful to others. maybe you don't like to help other people. feeling that if you open up once, people will take advantage of you. i think that the more you give FROM YOUR HEART the more you receive. but don't give just to receive something back because what you get might not be the blessing that GOD has in store for you. if you need better understanding listen to Beyonce_me,myself,and i.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

inside my heart

I'm 22 now and i don't feel any different. i'm still working and looking forward to finish school. i know it will be really busy for me the for the next couple of years, but i'm never afraid of a challenge. it's unbelievable how so many people around me are. i try to encourage everyone and help keep a positive attitude no matter the situation. in the end, it all comes down to the individual and what they want for their life. some people just settle for what they can get,others try to get it while the gettin' is good. i will admit that it, sometimes you want to say"fuck it". the trick is to find motivation. soul searching. knowing who you are and setting goals is the best way to start. but the only way to have success is to acknowledge that GOD is the RULER! he already has a plan for you and all you need to do is put him first and let his will unfold and receive his blessings. i feel that i am very blessed. i have a great family (9850 birch st), fiancee, and a big ass head that is still has allot to learn. in the past i used to think that i didn't deserve to be happy, and i wasn't. i used feel bad when ever i wanted to do something for myself. not rewarding myself or thanking GOD when i succeeded. i became depressed, couldn't stand to look at myself in the mirror. fortunately, i have a fiancee that loves me enough to stand by me,and wanted me to be happy. the rest is his history. . .

Saturday, November 3, 2007

it's my b-day!!

well, the day is here. i'm 22 today and some things never change no matter how old you get. i love my family and i couldn't be more happy to spend the day with them. i have been through a number of things,and i thank GOD for everything. the good, the bad, and the things that he didn't expose me to. i know about the world, but there are still things that i want to know. i plan on taking the challenge head on with a open mind, heart and eyes. i just thank GOD for allowing me to see another year.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

...what would it be?

it's here!! my b-day is a week away. November 3rd i'll be turning 22 years old. i already have my gift for myself, i start a new job November 5th. i don't know what the future really holds anymore with the way the world is today. i just want my life to go according to God's plan. sometimes my faith is the only thing that keeps from giving up. i exercise my faith in all that i say and do. it hasn't been an easy task when patience is short and you know time doesn't have a pause button. so you know that i have been praying for patience more than ever. As i close this posting i want to ask, if you had to pick one thing to pray for, what would it be??


As my days go by i see things i never saw before. I'm bigger, bolder, and more sure of myself. Never knew how it really feels until now. I've always talked about it, even tried to be about it a few times. But, i wasn't ready. My mind had not matured,my emotions were still getting the best of me. I was still seeking the approval of others thinking i needed "them" to move on and be successful.

BUT 2day,

2Day i see things differently. The only people i need are myself and GOD.
Now that i am getting to know myself and feel good about me, i can let ALL good things come into my life,my everyday surroundings and my heart.

My mind, i'm going to fill that up with knowledge and wisdom in replacement of the poisoning that my fellow red water people have given me. I'm going to get through ALL my bad times KNOWING that it will not last forever and GOD does things for a reason. I'm going to learn from all my mistakes, not live by them. No more using them for excuses for why i cant continue to live my life and reach my goals.

My sister told me that i had to find my value in life.
I told myself i want to be PRICELESS, not WORTHLESS.

SO i have to be STRONG.
WISE in decision making.
Carefull who i LISTEN to.
CAUTIOUS where i go.
And BOLD with my statement.
I have to be ME!!

originally written -07/31/2006

Friday, October 26, 2007

there is a first time for everything

The other day i was talking to my sister and she told me about her blog. Instantly, i thouht to myself,"blogs are where people take out all their fustrations on the world and make assumptions about everyone around them." you know,"crazy people" do that stuff. A couple of days went by and i couldn't get the conversation out of my mind. I finally asked her for her blog address. I read it. I understood it...
thank you lil sis>>>